summer on my mind

just downloaded jjs newest cd/mixtape (?) this is the first song on it.

it starts of slow but thin after like 23 seconds inn Dr. Dre's Still Dre beat kix in the backand omgoodness jeeze louise! i am xany riii now with this on and i feel like air

and i loves it. soo much. i am kinda in the middle of something right now but

i plan to post the mediafire dl link for this because i think errryone deserves to have it. mmmhmm. good

geometricsleep.: THIS IS MAJOR.

took this off geometricsleeps blog. i love it.

so cool . prada and miu miu hit the spot as far as my taste goes.

i should have gone to fashion school when i had the chance.

i regret changing my mind at the last minute everyday.

i would be graduating this year if i would have gone.

i guess oh well though. know point in dwelling in the past.

oh shit

GROSS MAGIC AND OTHER STUFF TOO

easy big fella

 i have a history of becoming oddly  friendly with my cabbys.
when i am drunk for some reason when I arrive home i feel bad getting out of the car leaving them and I invite them to come in and hang out with me. so stupid. i am surprised i havent been strangled yet. the last one started reading my palm and them rubbing my neck and the whole time i was just thinking "please dont choke me please dont choke me..."  until finally i just stood up and said
"i just realized how unsafe this is. you might kill me at any minute can you please leave?"
and the cab driver said
"umm ok. ?? bye...do you want to give me your number?"
"NO! i am drunk and retarded right now. you have to leave"
"ok. bye have a goodnight"
"yea you too, bye."
                but ummm yea. so not safe. so not smart. wtf is wrong with me. my decision making skills have always been a little dull, but lately especially dissolved and non existent while under the influence.

I would

just the way you want

"i dont wanna feel shit..."

the newest Salem is wet. 

so good. so slow. so sweet. 

"i thought I warned you niggah

guess i didnt say enough..

just the way you walk.."

DOOM

41 tha pope

666polito

sip it cut SALEM

(if you like the first song i will send you the rest, i dont feel like uploading them all right now)

easy

      i am feeling a little shiverry shakey
      i am not falling apart  put i keep telling myself that i am because i am overflowing with anxiety
xanexweedgoodygoodygumm drops i need you.

i love brad carter.
we are making a purple skirt right now. long and tight with a big slit on the side.

i went to jail on friday. most of the cops were pretty chill and funny. i swear i have seen some of them out at the bars sometimes. ew. why have hung out at cop bars. ohh reno. why are you so small...but anyways one of them was not chill and funny. one of them was annoyed because i was not acting sad or upset or solemn about being in there. in fact i was laughing to the point of tears. because i was high on weed cookie and talking to this girl who got caught for meth and couterfitting money. federal offense. whoa dude. but whatever. she was funny. and yea blah blah they put me in a holding for 6 hours because they said i was giving attitude because i dont even know why. maybe because i was making all the other people in booking laugh and smile and not hate their day so much. and he was fucking with me. coming by my room say stuff to me to try and make me freak out so i would get my o/r revoked. but it didnt happen i am not that stupid. but now i am pissed. buttt i am to tired ;) to talke about  it anymore.
but i am not gonna try and act tuff. after about the 3rd or 4th hour in the holding cell i started crying because i was cold and scared and had no idea what was going to happen. it was the first time i had ever been to jail.
but whatever i have new perspective now i understand a llittle bit better now. i think seeing that was kind of good for  me. it let me know how bad it could really be. it also reminded me how power trippin the people in charge of defending the law really are. most of the cops didnt really know much about what was going on politically. I was talking to a lot of them about a lot of stuff and most were clueless as to who is in office currently and well. its not like you are horrible for not knowing who the attorney general or DA is of your state but i just assumed that if you were a policeman you would want to know those kinds of things just so you could be involved in the orders you are following out. and understand the bottom line a little more.
i guess as far as my bottom line goes i just dont want to talk about it anymore. I just need to worry about myself.


on to better things.

HERE'S A MIX BY TEEN WITCH

                                                               STEAL HER LOOK

               getthatcash

Allison Schulnik

                http://www.allisonschulnik.com/

midnight fire

went to the Doc. on Friday. I was seriously this close (like 1mm) away from a prescription to Marinol (Rx maryJ) but the Doctor changed her mind at the very last minute and recommended that I take Melatonin instead. boo! :(  oh well. I still have a thriving supply of oatmeal herb cookies. I'm good. I'm good. I'm high. I'm high.


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My dear friend Matt Willett came to visit from Buffalo over the Holiday. With him he brought along a copy of the NY Zine Fire to the Prisons 
                                 I am very impressed. 

Issue 10

- Anti-G20 Resistance in Toronto
- Oakland Disgraced. Tensions
- Redundancy Equates Death
- Discover More on your Own

this is the latest issue. It is the issue that I have. If you want to see it just let me know and I will pass it on. you can go on to their website and check it out too if you would like. 

firetotheprisons.com

slackin hard

I have not been posting anything worthy of attention and I am sorry.
I hope to do better from now on.

I am trying to turn my life around a little bit.
I hope to get a good nights sleep as often as possible
not drink every night
not get drunk every time I drink
and just be an all around more responsible and motivated human being from now on.
which reminds meeee I still haven't registered for spring semester. SHIT. FUCK. uggh!!
no point in freaking out I guess.
just need to be like Nike and do it!


ANYWAYSSSSS
on a more entertaining level:

I must give props to Karley Sciortino and her blog Slutever.org
It is definately my new favorite. 
The girl is a writer for Vice, Platform, Dazed and Confused and Sup Mag as well as an online Dominatrix. I love her. I love her voice. she is great. 


go to her blog and you will find::
  from her latest post "Pics of Boyz Cumming..." 

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  the interviews she does are always the best though
  this is an interview she did with one of her submissives:
  
  
  
  

  What’s the most pathetic thing you’ve ever done, slave#1?
  I was buying phone credit for a 15 year old girl a while back. I would jerk off while her and her mates shouted abuse at me down the phone. Then last year I finally met her in person – she’s now 20 – and she made me get on my knees at a cash point and take out £300 for her.

  What turns you on about being submissive?
  I get this intense feeling in my stomach when I’m being humiliated or made to hand over money. I crave it. But then once I cum or I’m not horny anymore, I’m pretty normal. The other thing is, until recently I had a disposable income, so it was never an issue money-wise. But now I’m basically addicted, and broke, so I’m trying to find some will power. I was thinking of forcing myself to masturbate every morning, to prevent getting so horny that I need dommes to take my money!

  How often do you give girls money?
  It’s directly proportional to how often I get really horny. If I’m getting laid regularly – so basically never – then I don’t do it at all. But the more I drink the hornier I get, and I’ve been drinking quite a bit the last two months, so I’ve given away about £1000 in that time. I cringe when I think about how much I’ve blown in my lifetime. One domme took £3k from me.

  How well do you know the people you give money to? How can you be sure they’re not creepy old men posing as hot, young girls?
  Some definitely are men posing as women. Men are actually better at being degrading and getting me horny, maybe because most are sub guys themselves, so they know what to say. To be honest if they admitted they were men I’d probably still pay up. I’ve given money to men in the past, just because I was too horny to care.

  
  

  the interview goes on, if you would like to read more log on to Slutever

  She has inspired me to look into being a Dominatrix. I don't get off on being mean to people but, the money is good and you can do it in your spare time. I don't know though. we'll see. 

   p.s. there is also a really good interview she has on there that she did with Harmony Korine about his latest Trash Humpers if you are interested.