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fuck my dad. he is a piece of shit
a stupid dumb piece of trailer trash alcoholic Mexican American wife beating lieing shit. i hate him i hate him.
i really don't know why i even talk to him anymore.

all he does is disappoint. ugh.

i am mad. and i am sad. like totally bummed.

flaked on me tonight.
and lied.
and is a drunk ass. fuck.


so i am here. at my house. alone. as usual.
I hate my new place.
its so far away.
all I do is sit here
and smoke weed
and draw
and talk to coco
who normally doesnt have much to repsond.


i dont know. this winter is too long. i feel depressed and lonely. and its lame

i want to cheer up. but i dont know how

saterday morning cartoons

silly:



French fashion desighner JC DC.I love him. very sweet.


I wish I could be one of those girls that lives with an artist as their muse. That would be a dream. so cool. maybe if im realllly lucckkyy....

when I smoke weed: the weed smokes me

Sewn Leather : Pay attention to it. The next coolest for sure.


Smoke of the Punk






and MY Favorite:: Shadows . This song makes me laugh. I love when he says "COME HERE.." and the whole leather jacket part "Does your leather jak ket make you feel tough?Do you feel tough in your leathh err jackkett? Who are you" mmmmm. yummyum yum. i love them.

fuck you i know whats going on

really. I just have to say real quick

FUCK all you stupid little assholes walking around with your ego dipped in gold like your some kind of einstein of opinion. judging everyone for not wearing the right clothes or liking the right bands. Everyone in the stupid scumbag town is like "Peace this and Peace that Peace to the world I am leading the revolution...right after I beat that guy up for getting my new beanie dirty"

NO. it doesnt work like that.




just chill and do whatever you want to do. and do things for no reason but your own

sooo many rules go along with social interaction in this town. Its honestly kind of weird. Its like everyone is trying to be super rebellious and free while remaining completely rigid in their ways and perspectives. i dont understand

dirt

favorite:

SALEM dirt from SALEM on Vimeo.

the sweet sound of death

I love SALEM so much.
they are my favorite thing happening in the art world right now.

If you are not familiar:
They are a band.
...band..i dont know if that is the right word.
They make music. and it is amazing. on every level possible.

I think they are better then

crack.

.

sorrysorrysorrry.getting off subject.

So here is SALEM (kinda):

Salem is John Holland Jack Donoghue and Heather Marlatt( or is it Marlott?)

John used to be a speedballen crackhead and prostitute

while Jack and Heather are are school kids

the trio is from michigan/chicago

influenced by Hip-hop, Juke, Death Metal and Classical

Bleakness and Darkness is what threads it all together

by darkness I mean both the literal sense of being in the dark as well as dark as in scary morbid twisted

Alot of writers try to put them in the Goth catagory but I dont think they like that and I understand why.

but by Goth if it is to mean Gothic as in the style that came into style around the time Maccbeth and what not, I think it is a completely suitable label. but if by goth they intend the newer 21st century marilyn manson freak show shit....nah. not reallly.....freak show..um actually ya. that could work too. but me freak is a bit harsh. i would rather call it real. or maybe freaky but not freak.

ok enough. if you want to know more you can read a bunch of their interviews at:

http://www.s4lem.com/

when your there^ :

click on music and in white script it lists the names of some songs under a black triangle. click those. or click POP OUT PLAYER (duh) My favorite song on there is piggyhog but I think they have all been my favorite at one point.

honestly I have never heard music that made me feel so good in my life. Literally like Im on some sort of drug. SALEM's music makes me feel a million things that I cannot even describe.. and they get into the dark parts of my head that I try to avoid. but with them it doesnt scare me. It just makes me feel alive. and ok. numb. maybe? I dont know. It makes me feel like sinking into the ground

or french kissing

or nothing

really though. i think it is important to listen to the music without watching the videos to go with them as well. Let your mind make up its own thoughts images emotions to go along with the sound.