I would

just the way you want

"i dont wanna feel shit..."

the newest Salem is wet. 

so good. so slow. so sweet. 

"i thought I warned you niggah

guess i didnt say enough..

just the way you walk.."

DOOM

41 tha pope

666polito

sip it cut SALEM

(if you like the first song i will send you the rest, i dont feel like uploading them all right now)

easy

      i am feeling a little shiverry shakey
      i am not falling apart  put i keep telling myself that i am because i am overflowing with anxiety
xanexweedgoodygoodygumm drops i need you.

i love brad carter.
we are making a purple skirt right now. long and tight with a big slit on the side.

i went to jail on friday. most of the cops were pretty chill and funny. i swear i have seen some of them out at the bars sometimes. ew. why have hung out at cop bars. ohh reno. why are you so small...but anyways one of them was not chill and funny. one of them was annoyed because i was not acting sad or upset or solemn about being in there. in fact i was laughing to the point of tears. because i was high on weed cookie and talking to this girl who got caught for meth and couterfitting money. federal offense. whoa dude. but whatever. she was funny. and yea blah blah they put me in a holding for 6 hours because they said i was giving attitude because i dont even know why. maybe because i was making all the other people in booking laugh and smile and not hate their day so much. and he was fucking with me. coming by my room say stuff to me to try and make me freak out so i would get my o/r revoked. but it didnt happen i am not that stupid. but now i am pissed. buttt i am to tired ;) to talke about  it anymore.
but i am not gonna try and act tuff. after about the 3rd or 4th hour in the holding cell i started crying because i was cold and scared and had no idea what was going to happen. it was the first time i had ever been to jail.
but whatever i have new perspective now i understand a llittle bit better now. i think seeing that was kind of good for  me. it let me know how bad it could really be. it also reminded me how power trippin the people in charge of defending the law really are. most of the cops didnt really know much about what was going on politically. I was talking to a lot of them about a lot of stuff and most were clueless as to who is in office currently and well. its not like you are horrible for not knowing who the attorney general or DA is of your state but i just assumed that if you were a policeman you would want to know those kinds of things just so you could be involved in the orders you are following out. and understand the bottom line a little more.
i guess as far as my bottom line goes i just dont want to talk about it anymore. I just need to worry about myself.


on to better things.

HERE'S A MIX BY TEEN WITCH

                                                               STEAL HER LOOK

               getthatcash

Allison Schulnik

                http://www.allisonschulnik.com/

midnight fire

went to the Doc. on Friday. I was seriously this close (like 1mm) away from a prescription to Marinol (Rx maryJ) but the Doctor changed her mind at the very last minute and recommended that I take Melatonin instead. boo! :(  oh well. I still have a thriving supply of oatmeal herb cookies. I'm good. I'm good. I'm high. I'm high.


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My dear friend Matt Willett came to visit from Buffalo over the Holiday. With him he brought along a copy of the NY Zine Fire to the Prisons 
                                 I am very impressed. 

Issue 10

- Anti-G20 Resistance in Toronto
- Oakland Disgraced. Tensions
- Redundancy Equates Death
- Discover More on your Own

this is the latest issue. It is the issue that I have. If you want to see it just let me know and I will pass it on. you can go on to their website and check it out too if you would like. 

firetotheprisons.com

slackin hard

I have not been posting anything worthy of attention and I am sorry.
I hope to do better from now on.

I am trying to turn my life around a little bit.
I hope to get a good nights sleep as often as possible
not drink every night
not get drunk every time I drink
and just be an all around more responsible and motivated human being from now on.
which reminds meeee I still haven't registered for spring semester. SHIT. FUCK. uggh!!
no point in freaking out I guess.
just need to be like Nike and do it!


ANYWAYSSSSS
on a more entertaining level:

I must give props to Karley Sciortino and her blog Slutever.org
It is definately my new favorite. 
The girl is a writer for Vice, Platform, Dazed and Confused and Sup Mag as well as an online Dominatrix. I love her. I love her voice. she is great. 


go to her blog and you will find::
  from her latest post "Pics of Boyz Cumming..." 

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  the interviews she does are always the best though
  this is an interview she did with one of her submissives:
  
  
  
  

  What’s the most pathetic thing you’ve ever done, slave#1?
  I was buying phone credit for a 15 year old girl a while back. I would jerk off while her and her mates shouted abuse at me down the phone. Then last year I finally met her in person – she’s now 20 – and she made me get on my knees at a cash point and take out £300 for her.

  What turns you on about being submissive?
  I get this intense feeling in my stomach when I’m being humiliated or made to hand over money. I crave it. But then once I cum or I’m not horny anymore, I’m pretty normal. The other thing is, until recently I had a disposable income, so it was never an issue money-wise. But now I’m basically addicted, and broke, so I’m trying to find some will power. I was thinking of forcing myself to masturbate every morning, to prevent getting so horny that I need dommes to take my money!

  How often do you give girls money?
  It’s directly proportional to how often I get really horny. If I’m getting laid regularly – so basically never – then I don’t do it at all. But the more I drink the hornier I get, and I’ve been drinking quite a bit the last two months, so I’ve given away about £1000 in that time. I cringe when I think about how much I’ve blown in my lifetime. One domme took £3k from me.

  How well do you know the people you give money to? How can you be sure they’re not creepy old men posing as hot, young girls?
  Some definitely are men posing as women. Men are actually better at being degrading and getting me horny, maybe because most are sub guys themselves, so they know what to say. To be honest if they admitted they were men I’d probably still pay up. I’ve given money to men in the past, just because I was too horny to care.

  
  

  the interview goes on, if you would like to read more log on to Slutever

  She has inspired me to look into being a Dominatrix. I don't get off on being mean to people but, the money is good and you can do it in your spare time. I don't know though. we'll see. 

   p.s. there is also a really good interview she has on there that she did with Harmony Korine about his latest Trash Humpers if you are interested. 
  
  
  
  

littlebabies

merry xxxmas i love you

pysch

I am in the process of putting a streampad on here but it is a tiny bit more complicated then I realized. I just need to find a place where I can store my files for FREEezzzey. it will happen. just not as quick as I thought.


in the mean time. Download Black Ant Sel 3. http://www.mediafire.com/?9npd2oiohh6n4xf   It is really good. the last song on it D8M3 is my favorite so far. you can listen on myspace too. under the name Black Ant. also he has a tumblr. go to http://b-l-a-c-k.tumblr.com/     I have not been able to find a whole lot of information about him just yet. the best so far was his myspace profile: http://www.myspace.com/akforty
yeah. prettyfuckndope if you ask me. make up your own mind though.  I would post a video or something by him if I could but so far I havent been able to find anything.

xxxmas

i put up the christmas tree tonight with Brad.
looks great.
we got into a fight with the lady at CVS, she was really mean and unreasonable.


gonga queen 420


I love Heavy Hawaii. They are cool
Brad calls it Quaalude music.





if you like it I can give you the cd.






and oh yeah I found this sight called sluttyfringe
music and stuff. idunnocheckitout

thieves like us

Favorite Favorite
this song is the way life should always feel



"go downtown with the drugs in my body..."



you can download both of their CDS here:


2009 Play Music


         1.  Program of the First Part
         2. Drugs in My Body
         3. Fass
         4. An Easy Tonight
         5. Lady
         6. Program of the Second Part
         7. Your Heart Feels
         8. Miss You
         9.Desire
         10. Headlong into Night
         11. Sugar and Song

2010 Again & Again :

1. "Never Known Love"
2. "Shyness"
3. "Mercy"
4. "One Night with You"
5. "Silence"
6. "Lover Lover"
7. "Love Saves"
8. "The Walk"
9. "So Clear"
10. "Forget me Not"

go downtown with the drugs in my body

goldddentimes. I just dont care anymore. do whatever you want because its all just for fun. and whats wrong with that. 

and let me just say Miss Kittin is so cool. she seems like a genuinley nice person. buts its weird because her music is so "drugs anorexic LA $$$$" but in her interviews she says shes mmaking music for deaf people. And concentrating more  on the mathematical rhythm of the beat more than anything else. She made the 90s cool. I will always regard her as an Icon

posse

awesom blog. toomuchposse click the pickture above to get there.





this one too. its called. Exterior Decorators. click the image to check it out.

"Do or Die. Smoke & Get High" -alife

moderngothicpornstar. im sorry

MODERN WITCH






I like this stufff. It kinda reminds me of Geneva Jacuzzi.
kind of.
ok but. really, you have to watch it with a sense of humor in mind.
take it to seriously and you are just trying waaay to hard. in my opinion at least.
the Ghosts of You (remix) video is soo fuckin funny. legs and arms and torsos floating around. like huh?what?



if you like it too.
I understand if you dont.
but if you do.
you can have it. here. and here.





reallly though!! I do not know what is goin on with all this gothic electronic stuff that is so big right now. but I am enticed. All of it goes hand in hand with heroin chic and morphine addiction. SALEM really got it down with all their Gucci M. remixxxes. and crack head videos. and now its all on fire.
so weird.
2010. what is goin onnn mang.



see what I mean though:





kinda funny. kinda sad. super creepy. A part of me feels guilty for posting it on here.
dont judge. it was just too much to walk away from without sharing..


SALEM has always done it best though: the music is always sooo good.

creepy crawly

im getting a new bed for Christmas. whoray
I have been home alone every night for the past week. maybe longer.
living in south Reno is lonely.

I found a ton of awesome new music yesterday. but I dont feel like posting any of it yet. I am not sure which of it I want to share and which of it I want to get rid of. 

so until I can figure that out I am just gonna post some of the blog urls that I got it all from ::

http://hearhums.blogspot.com/

http://honeyftb.blogspot.com/

http://keyboardsisdrunk.blogspot.com/

AND THEN

YOU MUST

DOWNLOAD THIS SONG

((its the mp3 for the song in the "Gateway Drugs" post titled Robo Tussin [the 2nd video].))

gateway drugs

i love you all. i love you all. i love you all