i am not falling apart put i keep telling myself that i am because i am overflowing with anxiety
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i love brad carter.
we are making a purple skirt right now. long and tight with a big slit on the side.
i went to jail on friday. most of the cops were pretty chill and funny. i swear i have seen some of them out at the bars sometimes. ew. why have hung out at cop bars. ohh reno. why are you so small...but anyways one of them was not chill and funny. one of them was annoyed because i was not acting sad or upset or solemn about being in there. in fact i was laughing to the point of tears. because i was high on weed cookie and talking to this girl who got caught for meth and couterfitting money. federal offense. whoa dude. but whatever. she was funny. and yea blah blah they put me in a holding for 6 hours because they said i was giving attitude because i dont even know why. maybe because i was making all the other people in booking laugh and smile and not hate their day so much. and he was fucking with me. coming by my room say stuff to me to try and make me freak out so i would get my o/r revoked. but it didnt happen i am not that stupid. but now i am pissed. buttt i am to tired ;) to talke about it anymore.
but i am not gonna try and act tuff. after about the 3rd or 4th hour in the holding cell i started crying because i was cold and scared and had no idea what was going to happen. it was the first time i had ever been to jail.
but whatever i have new perspective now i understand a llittle bit better now. i think seeing that was kind of good for me. it let me know how bad it could really be. it also reminded me how power trippin the people in charge of defending the law really are. most of the cops didnt really know much about what was going on politically. I was talking to a lot of them about a lot of stuff and most were clueless as to who is in office currently and well. its not like you are horrible for not knowing who the attorney general or DA is of your state but i just assumed that if you were a policeman you would want to know those kinds of things just so you could be involved in the orders you are following out. and understand the bottom line a little more.
i guess as far as my bottom line goes i just dont want to talk about it anymore. I just need to worry about myself.
on to better things.
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