8.01.2011
7.31.2011
drip sweat
the desert is the country of madness
oooh. its been so hawt and humid these last few days. saw a rainbow on friday. it was amazing. it was mostly red and pink against a purple sky+lightning. so cewl
oooh. its been so hawt and humid these last few days. saw a rainbow on friday. it was amazing. it was mostly red and pink against a purple sky+lightning. so cewl
Dr. Strange:
creatureFeature: 1978's Dr. Strange. full length film posted.
Boyfriend Human Love and I watched this last night and had such a good time. This movie has so many things in it that were later used in other movies, such as:
being terrorized in your sleep: Nightmare on Elm Street
Fighting with crazy colored light beams: Star Wars
Being the chosen hero from birth and having your parents die for you in a car reck: Harry Potter
plus like a million things that were later used in Indiana Jones
plusssss++ there is all kinds of cool ideas explored in the movie such as the devil, wizardry and astral projection. yay. awesome!
6.22.2011
Ten Kens
The Ten Kens are from canada. I heard them first while listening to a ty segall similar artist radio station thing. I was surprised at how diverse they were. a little bit unexpected on some songs. kind of 90s ish. i dunno. everysong is kind of different but then all with similar qualities?
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6.03.2011
blue
I left you, because you were making me sad. but now that you are gone I feel infinately sadder.
i dont know what to do.
i just feel heartbroken.
so so heartbroken
and sad.
5.15.2011
When you died
Eric Kvam died on 4.20 this year.
I wrote and published this post immediately after it happened but took it off soon after becuz I wasnt ready to share how I felt about it.....
Eric died.
It has been a humongous loss that I don't think I will ever get over.
He was my high school sweet heart. and we were bf+gf about a year ago.
and I felt bad when I heard that he died because when I broke up with him I didn't tell him that I was breaking up. I just stopped talking to him. Stopped answering his calls. Didn't answer the door when he came to visit...ect. And one day while the separation was happening he was under my window throwing pebbles up to get my attention and at one point he said " I know you still love me, That's why you won't talk to me..." and It was true. I did still love him. I always have. always will. I loved him from the moment I met him, in 7th grade, at the movie theaters.
I always told my mom that i was going to marry him. We were always sneaking each other into each others rooms at night. or going out into the desert to party in his van. GOSH. I always thought we would be there for each other, to watch each other grow up and get old. but now he is dead and he will never get old.
it makes me sick.
and going through this loss has changed my perspective in so many ways on so many things.
I had never lost anyone so important to me before this.
very new feeling. indeed.
his mom has been posting some of the stuff he had written in journals and what not, that she had found while cleaning out his room:
London
Rainy and wet side of the world
Gatherer of British history
Castles constructed from thousands of years ago
interesting, mesmerizing and unique.
City of the Fish and Chips.
It is said that the weather is rainy and foggy
and I know for fact it is true,
For I have seen the mist and fog float around
for hours on end.
And the tell me of the horrible food that exists
around every corner,
For I've seen the slop that is piled generously
onto your breakfast plate.
I hear of the clapping of tires on the small and empty
streets because of the parking in wrong places,
I have witnessed the frustration of the people that cannot drive their car because of their small mistakes.
And having answered, I turn to the people that judge
my city as bad and say to them:
Show me a city with brilliant rolling green hills and magnificent
strong castles,
Not only the greeness, but also the kindness and generosity
of the people.
rest in peace Eric. I Love you so..
AND NOW
It is October and:
On october 20th I was in a really bad car wreck ..((had a seizure while driving, went into oncoming traffic, hit 3 cars and crashed into a big ditch))... And was lucky enough to be the only one injured and not even injured very badly ( just a broken foot, dislocated shoulder and some minor other stuff ) everyone has been telling me how lucky I am to have come out if it alive. And it definitely scared me and gave me a wake up call. I really dont understand how I came out alive and not paralyzed or cut in half. And then what do you know: the first time I am out and about after the wreck, I am sitting at a bus stop and I look down and their is Eric's EMK tag right under the tip of my toes.
I couldn't believe it. To me, it was like he was sending me a message like "I got your back. I am here don't worry. Don't be scared" and I dunno. It was just really overwhelming and weird. And I tried telling my friends here in Reno about it and they just looked at me like yea whatever you are crazy. And yea. I dunno
Another thing that was weird about it was about 2 weeks before the accident I had an aura cleansing and was told that I had a young male presence aggressively holding onto me and would not let me go.
3.16.2011
deep deep baby
I have a version of this^song on my computer that is screwed. and i love ittt. ohh. babybaby.
Lykke Li - I Follow Rivers (I Follow You Tyler, The Creator Mix)
where are you going
a great interview with Louis CK for Vanity Fair, illustrated by a picture of Wackystuff
Here, O> Starvation Can Be character building
Below are some excerpts:
Another Great Depression heroes of might do us some good. It'd Be Like Economic rehab.
That's Exactly what it is. It's forcing us back to reality. "Wait, I only Have the money I make from work? How am I Supposed to live on that? "Figure it out. We've spent so many years Being spoiled That We do not know how to live anymore.
That's Exactly what it is. It's forcing us back to reality. "Wait, I only Have the money I make from work? How am I Supposed to live on that? "Figure it out. We've spent so many years Being spoiled That We do not know how to live anymore.
Technology has spoiled us?
It's definitely spoiled us. When You Have Slightly slow signal on your PDA, or it takes more than 30 seconds to download the picture of Axl Rose on your iPhone, and That irritates you, something is very, very wrong. "This is too slow!" Well, why would not it be a little slow? Why do people think That they're the perfect day Owed to the consumer? The phones are as good as They Are. But Americans feel like it's in the Constitution That Should Our phones work perfectly all the fucking time and that we get the most bang for buck Our. We think it's literally a human right, like it was Mentioned in Thomas Paine's "Rights of Man" or something. An American is somebody who Could Be anywhere - at the ends of the earth, in the middle of nowhere - and If They Hit That one cell pocket WHERE Their service isn't great, they'll look up at the sky and scream, " What the fuck! "Jesus, man, calm down.
It's definitely spoiled us. When You Have Slightly slow signal on your PDA, or it takes more than 30 seconds to download the picture of Axl Rose on your iPhone, and That irritates you, something is very, very wrong. "This is too slow!" Well, why would not it be a little slow? Why do people think That they're the perfect day Owed to the consumer? The phones are as good as They Are. But Americans feel like it's in the Constitution That Should Our phones work perfectly all the fucking time and that we get the most bang for buck Our. We think it's literally a human right, like it was Mentioned in Thomas Paine's "Rights of Man" or something. An American is somebody who Could Be anywhere - at the ends of the earth, in the middle of nowhere - and If They Hit That one cell pocket WHERE Their service isn't great, they'll look up at the sky and scream, " What the fuck! "Jesus, man, calm down.
Technology Was Supposed To save us, giving us jetpacks and robot maids and making life easier. What went wrong?
I think people just got numb to it all. It "seems like the better it gets, the more miserable people Become. There's never a technological advancement WHERE people think, "Wow, We Can finally do this! "It's always," We can not do that yet? Why not? "And I think a lot of it has to with the advertising. Americans have it drilled into Our Heads Constantly, every fucking day, That We Deserve to Be everything perfect all the time.
I think people just got numb to it all. It "seems like the better it gets, the more miserable people Become. There's never a technological advancement WHERE people think, "Wow, We Can finally do this! "It's always," We can not do that yet? Why not? "And I think a lot of it has to with the advertising. Americans have it drilled into Our Heads Constantly, every fucking day, That We Deserve to Be everything perfect all the time.
That's true. Most successful commercials are selling based on entitlement.
They all try to remind you of how cool you are. "You're so cool, you park your SUV on a mountainside When You climb." What? No, I do not do that at all. Nobody I know is doing that."You deserve the best cause you work so hard!" Actually, no, I do not work hard. I waste most of my time at work. Everybody does.
They all try to remind you of how cool you are. "You're so cool, you park your SUV on a mountainside When You climb." What? No, I do not do that at all. Nobody I know is doing that."You deserve the best cause you work so hard!" Actually, no, I do not work hard. I waste most of my time at work. Everybody does.
How do we save ourselves? Are we just fucked, or is there a way to kick bad habits Our?
It'll take care of itself. If it gets bad enough, people Will just adapt. They Will not Be Able to Afford cable anymore, or go to Rent-A-Center and buy a leather couch fucking, or Their homes fill with all this shit on credit and That They Have shouldn't do not need. They'll Have to go out to the garage and find That Old bicycle they've neglected over the years and fill the tires up.And they'll Have to start taking care of the shit They Already own instead of just throwing it away and going out and buying new shit That does not work. And maybe they'll learn how to bring a little quiet again Into Their Lives. Just stop all the constant screaming of technology and media and video games. Maybe get to the point WHERE EVERY Decision has more impact, WHERE you what's not is based on what you want or think you need But whether or not you'll starve if you do not have it.
It'll take care of itself. If it gets bad enough, people Will just adapt. They Will not Be Able to Afford cable anymore, or go to Rent-A-Center and buy a leather couch fucking, or Their homes fill with all this shit on credit and That They Have shouldn't do not need. They'll Have to go out to the garage and find That Old bicycle they've neglected over the years and fill the tires up.And they'll Have to start taking care of the shit They Already own instead of just throwing it away and going out and buying new shit That does not work. And maybe they'll learn how to bring a little quiet again Into Their Lives. Just stop all the constant screaming of technology and media and video games. Maybe get to the point WHERE EVERY Decision has more impact, WHERE you what's not is based on what you want or think you need But whether or not you'll starve if you do not have it.
Starvation is not a big concern for most Americans.
It's really not. Can Be starvation and character building. There's a big difference between "I need to because of this I fucking deserve the best" and "I need to to this so I do not freeze to death in the winter."
It's really not. Can Be starvation and character building. There's a big difference between "I need to because of this I fucking deserve the best" and "I need to to this so I do not freeze to death in the winter."
A little less time on Twitter would be good for everybody.
Exactly! Twitter and Facebook and MySpace, All That stuff makes you warped. Basically we've all ourselves Given data entry jobs. Actually I've heard people say things like, "Aw shit, I have to update my Twitter." Really? You Have to? That's a big priority for you?
Exactly! Twitter and Facebook and MySpace, All That stuff makes you warped. Basically we've all ourselves Given data entry jobs. Actually I've heard people say things like, "Aw shit, I have to update my Twitter." Really? You Have to? That's a big priority for you?
Do you have any faith whatsoever That the "crappiest generation", the've called Them, is going to save us?
We'll be OK Everything is cyclical. It's amazing That people expect it to just get better and better and better and it'll never burst. We're babies. It's like the New York Yankees. It's fun to watch the team win the World Series and then watch Their players get older and the new generation comes in and they're Basically starting from scratch again. But Americans Are not willing to do that. We're like the Yankees. We just keep buying players for steroid-pumped millions of dollars and expect to win EVERY year. And When we start losing, we get moody and pissed off and resentful, instead of Asking, "What should I be doing Differently?" Nobody wants to change, because the TV keeps telling Them, "No, you deserve the best! This is all yours!You've got it coming! "
We'll be OK Everything is cyclical. It's amazing That people expect it to just get better and better and better and it'll never burst. We're babies. It's like the New York Yankees. It's fun to watch the team win the World Series and then watch Their players get older and the new generation comes in and they're Basically starting from scratch again. But Americans Are not willing to do that. We're like the Yankees. We just keep buying players for steroid-pumped millions of dollars and expect to win EVERY year. And When we start losing, we get moody and pissed off and resentful, instead of Asking, "What should I be doing Differently?" Nobody wants to change, because the TV keeps telling Them, "No, you deserve the best! This is all yours!You've got it coming! "
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