white horses

Tonight and 
Today have been extremely good. 

I was a couple hours late to work. but it was all good. as usual no one said anything. The weather was not to bad and I found out that the paper I thought was due Thursday is not due until NEXXXT Thursday. excellent! excellent! And on top of that Danielle came over for a little bit, and Logan came over too. I haven't hung out with either of them for awhile, so considering that they are 2 of my better friends it was nice spending a little time with them. we talked about Dubai and the War. and what we as a species. human beings. could do to make the world better and to treat each other better. We all had good ideas. I think that things will get better because our generation is more open minded.   Danielle says that we are the Indigo generation. and that we are special. I believe it. I think its true. and even if its not true yet, if we just believe in it, maybe we can manifest it. you never know. 


a few weeks ago I could not escape a deep feeling of sadness. and now out of no where I have been feeling this deep intense feeling of happiness that is incredibly overwhelming. sometimes it feels like it is going to burst out of my core in the form of bright golden rays of light. i do not know. I am most definitely crazy.  I don't mind though. and I don't think the people that know me care either. Everyone I know is crazy or fucked up. and it is perfect. 

I  feel so full of love and magic. stars. smoke. moonlight. whatever
. i am going to disintegrate into a million little tiny pieces. little gold and red flakes flying all around. like pollen particles.