the punk is good

set me free 

ive poseted this before. I really like it. I really like what he is sAYING.

negative charge

i hate not being in school. It makes me feel like a  piece of shit


i am wasting my time too much lately.

nothing funny about it ok

 Lately sometimes when I am high my inner voice starts sounding like madame Cleo. And it trips me out  

  haha. but it makes me laugh too. haha. she is in my head and I cant get her out. o man. commercialism has

 taken over my subconscious. 

badnewsguys

im not made of successful things

Myra Lee is one of my favorite albums. It always has been.






















...........i dont know what to do with myself. I feel unattached. uninterested. desensitized and bored. fuck society. fuck being alone. i dont want friends. i dont want enemies. i just want a lover that i can abuse and someone to tell me "yea, maybe one day."




I dont think I have ever had much faith in love. probably because i have always been too selfish to understand it.

fuuuuuuuck

its 420
and i am way
WAY too blazed

earlier i nearly lost it.
i cant move.think.talk.function
moments away from a coma.

im sposed to go to a bbq but i dont think im gonna make it


im sooofuckedup someone help me
.

grotesque satire

but now its just all fashion and noise. no soul. no soul. no soul.






its 420 tomorrow.

no soul

Kill me Baby wont you kill me

Thursday was amazing.hot.sweaty. take your clothes off and dance all night. Brad and  I went to Rusko and Major Lazer.  I love Rusko. Major Lazer was ok. It was just Diplo, Switch wasnt here so I know it could have been bettter. But the Dude they had out on stage to  hype up the crowd was great. Throw'n booze all over and climbed up a latter to take off his pants and shake his dick. The show was crazed and sexual. i loved it. 

but i must say: I cannot stand Ming and Ping or Ting and Zing or whatever the fuck they were called. Ugh no. I cant stand singers who smile when they sing. And It was just much to inspirational positive love yourself music. blekblekBLEK.



Today has not been so great though. My mother and I cannot see eye to eye. She thinks I am crazy I think she is close minded and suburban. and we both accuse the other of being on druggs.
ugh FUCK . it makes me so tense It feels like any minute now my spine is gonna fold in half backwards and all my muscles are are going to freak and spasm.

  Here is a little sugar if you need your day to be a little sweeter. as do I :

 LightSpeed Champion: Life is Sweet! Nice to meet you 2010

gum it

i fuckin found some white powder on the silver dish I have on the coffee table today. I wasnt thinking straight and I got excited. I thought maybe my dear sweet angel B*** left me a little treat or something. so I put it in my nose. And a few minutes later..coughed so hard I threw up. way to go loser. Next time I will just taste if first.








   i have been very busy.
this was just something dumb and quick:

its done on the plastic wrapping of the canvas. I am going to take it off and wrap it over something else. or maybe not wrap back over something. keep it transparent. for a reason. a message. a thought. idontknowyet

I have been inspired by disney and Heidi Montag her 10 plastic surgeries and sluts and porn stars that are are famous like Kim Kardashian, who by the way I have heard you can watch dumb and wet and covered in Ray-J's pee at the adult theater's arcade.

ideas are just blooming and growing and swimming and evolving and dying and decaying in my head. I have much more to do. much more to cum.

trick

  This is what is on at my house:

Take



















If you don't already

Have

attack of the virgin mary

Logan and I went to Baja Fresh. There was a bunch of overweight people in gym clothes eating there. And the boy at the register asked Logan if he had any plans for spring break. It was a funny situation and I remember it in an exaggerated fashion similar to a cartoon. I picture the boy placing his finger far back into his mouth and licking it slowly after he asked. Ha. Like a scene from a Teenagers Song. ...Everday life. its ok sometimes. and the sunset was beautiful too.

 I will always love:  The Teenagers 
"if you need a band cuz you wanna dance, or missing a freind cuz you don't have any, well we dont care. Just buy our T-shirts and talk about us everywhere..."
I love their songs but I love their  remixes of other artists most.

zomby

ZOMBY
    --Where where you in '92

good morning.
get high get dressed and go.
to this

Lucky You

http://whythefuckdoyouhaveakid.com/

oo man. not ok. not ok. 

i love it and i hate it at the same time. 

black moth

  spring.
i dont have much to say about it. I  am just glad its finally here.
I just want it to be hot outside so I can go swimming


here is one of the better items I have downloaded in recent days:

                                  


















               TAKETAKE

I really like this mix mainly because It starts with the Goosebumps theme song.
  but it goes like this::
1. Goosebumps Intro
2. Guvnor – 25 With a Bullet (Remix)
3. Marvelous Darlings – Teenage Targets
4. Demi Lovato (feat.The Jonas Brothers & Young Governor) – This Is Me
5. Ben Raynor and The Pricks – Crankin to Sonic Youth (Exclusive North American Release)
6. Guv Speaks
7. Guvnor – I’m a Mess (I’m the Best remix)
8. Setanta Soccer Theme Music/Bellamy Slaps a Fan
9. Marvelous Darlings – Galloway (Demo)
10. Guvnor – Summer Girl (Acapella Clip)
11. The Bitters – East (Live in Toronto)
12. Guv – Cindy’s Gonna Save Me (Clip)
13. Guv – Piano Lessons Can Be Murder Scene 1
14. To Burt, Luv Guv
15. The Bitters – I’m Fellin’ Good (clip)



NEWEST FAVORITE::

 This is Telepathe.

Farewell Forrest ep
OOoomg. this is so good. so good.
and
  
Mixtape(2009) SXSW09


start off with Bone Thugs and transcends into something cosmic. PLUS salem is the 3rd song on it so of course I love it.  anyways, check it out:

Bone Thugs and Harmony - Thuggish Ruggish Bone
Oppenheimer Analysis - Cold War
Salem - Dirt
The Chills - Pink Frost
Juvenile - Ha
Lisa Lisa and The Cult Jam - I wonder if I take you home
Bloc Party(Burial Remix) - Where is Home
Warrior Queen - Things Change
GZA - Liquid Swords
J Dilla - Two Can Win

yea it hurts alot

awww. my head hurts so bad i feel like I am going to throw up.
i cant take it. i dont know what to do.
I have taken my medication. I have taken handfuls of aspirin. i have smoked weed. i have slept for hours and hours and hours.




nothing helps. it just hurts. all the time. and right now i just dont know. it feels like screws and bolts have been drilled into my head or something.


and this is the way i was born. or maybe the way things got after neglecting myself so so long.
fuck epilepsy. or whatever the fuck this is.
you will never understand because I will never tell you.

just please listen to your parents when they tell you not to do drugs.
here i am. perfect example as to why they say so.

im gonna go bury my brain in a dark hole somewhere.

bleh.

drip

everyone is happy today because the sun is out.
and its thursday
and everyone wants to take off their clothes
       or atleast i do.

raperaperape